Role Play Here

-i have no friends that i can talk to

-everytime i look in the mirror iwanna cry

-im contantly getting yelled at by my parents who remind me im worthless

today is was my only "friends" birthday, i forgot like i always do, she came over and we made cookies nothing out of the normal, so then i look on face book and there was a whole fucking party but i wasent invited, REALLY and it was posted by her and said "with all my besest friends" and this after her telling me : you my only good friend: she texts me once a week and by once i mean like one text messange, she comes over her plays xbox and plays with kittens, we use to talk and hang out like actualy friend but im not fucking good enough. and now this,

then the other night my mom comes in here yelling at me to make friends, and get off my laptop no one fucking understand this is th eonly place i can make friends ive tried for years to make other friends, threw middle school and now high school but now im going to be a senior with one friend my bf that i met like 3 months ago is that, because no matter how hard i try, no one will ever like me, i try so hard to be there for people to be nice to people but i sit alone in my room and cry and cry no one is ever there for me, i havent gone over someone house but my own in over a year, no inccludeing hang out with my moms friend or washing someones dog, i wake up everyday to see if anyones texted me, no one ever does, so i get on my laptop and i role play cause in role plays i actualy fucking get noticed, i get ffake friends and tas what gets me by but no one understands that, i need to get out there and have a soical life so my moms tells me, im a very shy indiviual i dont even talk to my family, cause i dont feel comfrable talking to peopel even in elemnrty school iw as the freak, my only frien d was one of the lunch ladys and at recuses i sat but the same tree every day watching other people have friends and play soccer, when i tried to play i wasent even picked they just started with out me.

people always say dont let other peoples opinions get to you, i dont, but when i fucking hate myself,  its because I hate myself, not because some stupid bimbo was like gross you r fat, not its cause i look in the fucking mirror and when i feel my legs i feel the stretch marks, i had to go to intecive threapy because i hated my self so much for 2 monthins i was at  "intense inpaient" then got tranfered to a hospital were i was on constant gaurd and went even more crazy there because there were people there that were rode thin, and the people there became friend i sat on the god damn floor and pplayed with a puzzle for  a week before my fake smiles got me out,

every day i wanna die but i cant cause i dont have the fucking curage to end my life, which i want more then anything, cause everyday i get screamed at and yelled at for not being enough, everyday i look in the mirror and cry cause im still the ugly peice of shit i sayw yesterday, every fucking day i get reminded of how alone i am and always will be,

im only venting because the only people that are even remotely my friends are on here, i posted somthing similar on face book and everyone fucking like the stupid thing, this isent somthing u like, im just so frustrating and hurt and sad and fucking trapped, i have no where to go in my life, my dads a spitful drunk my mother is a back stabber if u trust her to much, and my brother leaves at the first sign of trouble not that anything ba will ever happen to him, sense hes the fucking golden child,

this  is basicly just a venting thread of how sick i am of everything...everyday i wanna go back to the razor, if i ever do, im not ganna be comeing back cause il have to make it count or they send me away again, if i only had the courage to save myself i would

another reason i cant post this anywhere else, somone would tell my parents and id lose everything and be shipped out to fucking therapy, which in my case was just a girl sitting there typeing on her laptop

i use to beilve that, that one day someone would understand me for who i am, but people walk in and out of my like a duncun doenuts on free donut day. no one sicks around when i need them anymore,

Life is shit and then you die. That's how it is. 

Intense, you're an asshole. xDD

I choose to look at it differently, but anywhore.....

bahaha siba i swear, u make my day by just messangeing me XD

Oh, why thank you, Sir Smuffles.

I love it when a murderer messages me.

Because Hey! Someone's messaging me, finally. xDD

No, but seriously, I feel honored to be that little fucking ray of sunshine. x33

YOU ARE MY SUN SHINE MY ONLY- *closes blindes* fuck light it burns

YOU MAKE ME HAPPYYYYY WHEN SKIES ARE GREY!

You'll never dear HOW MUCH I HATE YOU.

JK. I love you. x333

SO PLEASE DON"T TAKE MY SUNSHINE AWAYYY! XD

You know I get told that alot >< Haha. YOLO

Oh yes, YOLO. I say YODO. You only die once so Die bitch, Die. xDD I'm so lovely. x3 

(_ _*) Oh, excuse my cousin. All of you. Shes insensitive.  And Maybe you do need therapy Piggy poo, because being this unhappy is not very good for a persons health. I get really un happy... but I kind of hide it away and let myself cry it out.  Some things make it hard to be happy, but you've got to try to be happy in order to be happy.

Oh Valentino, I know dat. x33 It doesn't bug me. xDD I am quite insensitive myself. ^-^ And that's some good advice. 

In other words..... stop moping and get your ass out and dont care what anyone else says.

Both are true. I don't really go by YOLO but I just don't give a shit anymore. 

I couldn't agree more. I was sitting by a local beach shop yesterday with a mate of mine. There were 8 parking places available for people to park in, 8. A Tahoe pulls in and tries to park in the parking spot we're sitting in. Being me, and not giving a shit, I didn't move a single fucking inch. He finally pulled a little farther up and parked, getting out and shooting daggers at us and walking in with his fatass family. I had a large McDonalds sweet tea, and while we sat there, with a bigass Tahoe about to crush our feet, we just continued talking and laughing about shit. When I finished my drink, I stuffed the bottom of it into a nick in his engine grill and walked off. I'm not a wannabe badass. I'm not a douchebag. I'm me. Don't fucking park in my damn comfort zone.

Sentient at July 17, 2013 at 2:42 PM

I couldn't agree more. I was sitting by a local beach shop yesterday with a mate of mine. There were 8 parking places available for people to park in, 8. A Tahoe pulls in and tries to park in the parking spot we're sitting in. Being me, and not giving a shit, I didn't move a single fucking inch. He finally pulled a little farther up and parked, getting out and shooting daggers at us and walking in with his fatass family. I had a large McDonalds sweet tea, and while we sat there, with a bigass Tahoe about to crush our feet, we just continued talking and laughing about shit. When I finished my drink, I stuffed the bottom of it into a nick in his engine grill and walked off. I'm not a wannabe badass. I'm not a douchebag. I'm me. Don't fucking park in my damn comfort zone.

I laughed. Reaaallly loud. Its 11:43 at night right now. Luckily my door was closed. x3

Yea..... it has..